Remember who you are
These are some pretty powerful words as in SecondLife I was and still struggle with this idea of who I am. As some of you on my Tiny Empires line know that I had switched places with my RL mom Shannon Sittingbull as a Viceroy when my mom had a stroke. I have had an amazing time before the switch happend before that time had happend I was known around parts of the grid as Neil Slade's and Shannon Sittingbull's daughter at certain clubs. Neil's rl daughter Nadia was more open at times about being a shifter on SL and not afraid of changing forms or even what others thought. Back then I wish I was as brave as she was. Most who know me either know me as a Neko or Human but not as the lioness or the wolf I have became.
Rafiki had it right when he said, "Yes the past can hurt. But the way I see it you can either run from it or learn from it".
I refuse to take away my Secondlife past as I journey into the future. Some have even told me on the day of my recent SL handfasting that what I was doing was a mistake and that I was losing myself for the other person. I say I disagree to what the others say and that I haven't lost myself at all and that I gained someone I shouldn't have lost and let go in the first place. They all said the first time when my now Partner got together with me then as well that we were rushing into things. If I am making a mistake it is no one but my own to make.
He makes me a better person even though I am constantly telling him to go away and just leave almost every other day. I don't understand how I can be so loved on my hard days. He gets me to do things that I haven't in years and I remember who I am. I am the artist the one who draws and paints colors into a world that if left alone would be dark and grey. So thanks to him I do remember and remembering at times hurts because not everything I have been through is pretty. There are others that I should thank as well but there would be too many people to list.
