Fantasy Faire

So here are my first few pictures this year from Fantasy Faire.  Now Fantasy Faire is  the largest fantasy-related event to take place in Second Life, will take place in 2020 from Thursday, April 23rd, through Sunday May 10th, 2020. Once again raising money for the global work of the American Cancer Society as a part of the Relay for Life of Second Life 2020 season.

This year's motto is Strong Together.Celebrating its twelfth year, Fantasy Faire 2020 is the largest gathering of fantasy designers, enthusiasts, role-players and performers in the virtual world. From Thursday, April 23 to Sunday May 10, treat yourself to shopping, dance and theater performances, DJ parties, auctions, questing, our Literary Festival, fantasy art, events and role-playing as thousands of Second Life residents and creators bring their own visions together to support the American Cancer Society’s vision of a world without cancer.

As always, you’ll find fantasy avatars, clothing, furnishings, gadgets and exclusive items available from almost 200 of Second Life’s top Fantasy Creators across thirteen stunning regions designed by some of the visionary artists behind many of the hottest spots on the Second Life destination guide.
In addition to the thirteen shopping regions there will also be five Faireland realms that take us beyond commerce, from a Memorial Garden to the Fairelands Quest, the Literary Festival, Performance Stages, from Art Galleries to the Worldling Collection. These bring the Fairelands count for 2020 to eighteen regions.

Now  Strong Together means alot to me because  not only have I lost RL and SL family members  as well as some of my best friends.  Without  my friends and this great community of people  we are strong  together. I'm probably will add  some more from  Fantasy Faire in a day or two  but for now here's a song to enjoy

Truth Hurts Part Two

So yeah  its about  time   that I stop  for a moment  and post up  the pictures. I'm still not in the best headspace but why hide  the pictures when  in fact truth does hurt  at times What  am I scared of  when there really  isn't anything I can  do but face things head on. The  pictures  feel only about  half justice was done to them like  the pictures I've taken in 2013 were some of  my better work.


I would love to know  what  ya'll think cause its good to get out of my own headspace at times. It be great to know what ya'll thought of these pictures. Be as harsh with them as ya want. The black and white was my favorite out of  all the  pictures I took recently.  Maybe its  due to the fact that all the little details are clearer than the  colored one.

Truth Hurts Part 1

It's been awhile since I was properly active here on SecondLife. I used to churn out blogs on the regular, but I haven't really  written one in ages. Sometimes I sit with a blank page in front of me, watching the cursor appear and disappear, willing the inspiration and the words to come.

I log in and browse almost every day. I leave the occasional comment, but am mostly an observer.
It's not that I don't like this place, or that I don't want to participate. That's not the case at all.
I've just felt kind of 'meh'. I've felt detached from my self
This evening I was thinking about it. Exploring it in my head, searching for the sparks that used to build such a roaring fire of lust in me.

And I couldn't find them for weeks
Instead, what I found was a single thought:
I don't want to be a sub any more.
I considered that idea for awhile, tossing it backwards and forwards in my head, thinking about what  relationships would look like for a 'nilla version of Regi would look like.

It  just wouldn't work. I can't change who I am in my heart. To try denying who I know I am would be pointless, frustrating, and probably painful. I would be sad and unsatisfied.
So I am deciding to write this. I decided to explore what lies beneath that single pained thought - I don't want to be a sub any more. Why? Where does it come from? What does it really mean? How did this all start?And out tumbled a stream of thoughts. A flurry of consciousness.

Anger with myself for bad decisions I've made in the past. I thought I'd sorted through those feelings, but clearly not. How could I be so bloody stupid? How could my judgment be so bad?

If you behave like prey, don't be surprised when you attract the predators. That's what someone I respect says, and he is right. It is then hard to sort the good wolves from the bad wolves - especially when they all have such deliciously shiny teeth.

It's conflicting. To know that while the feeling of being hunted makes me wet, what happens next can hurt me in ways I don't enjoy at all.
So that's what it all comes down to. The same thing it always comes down to eventually:
Fear.I am afraid of where my  thoughts will  lead me. I am afraid of getting it wrong. I am afraid of being hurt. I am afraid of being a sub. And I don't know how to fix it.

For Today

Incase someone didn't tell you for today that you are enough. For today its important to know that you are perfect just the way you are. For today its important to not listen to the  little voices running  so loud and loosely through your head.  For today know that every tried and failed attempt counts. For today know that even if no one ever reads this know that your kind thoughts and actions were put out there. For today  know that thoughts become actions.

To the  stranger who encouraged me into  writing  while I was  sitting on the beach. Thank you so much. It was just what  I needed to here for the longest time. For the last few years I had felt out of place  like no matter how many times I would be with friends I felt like  I didn't belong at all even though I have tons of friends I have made and lost through the years here spent on Second Life.



Remember in a world where you can be anything its always important to be kind

Head :AK DELUXE-ELISE HEAD
Eyes:Yellow Cat Eyes by Delizo
Hair: Sava Hair by Exxess
Body:Maitreya Lara Body 5.0
Shape: Shape2 made by myself
Tail and Neko ears: Catseye Avatar
Tigress

Outfit: A Summer Kini for  Maitreya Body by Dark Salvation